Being in love.

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn`t it? It make you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person,no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life.. You give them a piece of you. They didn`t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn`t our own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It`s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.

I've been led on to think that we've been trying for too long. Every time we drift, we're forcing what is wrong. At last that voice is gone. Please take your time.  but you've got to know that i'm taking sight. oh, you look good with your patient face and wandering eye. don't hold this war inside. you left your home, your so far from everything you know. your big dream is crashing down and out your door. wake up and dream once more. come back when you can. let go, you'll understand. you've done nothing at all to make me love you any less. so come back when you can. come back, i'll help you stand. let go and hold my hand if all you wanted was me, i'd give you nothing less. .

so come back when you can.

Something in your eyes makes me wanna lose myself. Makes me want to lose myself in your arms. There's something in your voice that makes my heart beat fast. Hope this feeling lasts the rest of my life. If you knew how lonely my life has been and how long i've been so alone, and if you knew how i wanted someone to come along and change my life the way you've done. A window breaks, down a long, dark street. And a siren wails in the night. But i'm alright, because i have you here with me and i can almost see through the dark there is light. Well if you knew how much this moment means to me and how long i've waited for your touch. and if you knew how happy you are making me. I never though that i'd love anyone so much. It feels like home to me

                                        It feels like home to me.

broken- hearted girl

You`re everything i thought you never were, and nothing like i thought you could`ve been. But still you live inside me so tell me how is that? You`re the only one i wish i could forget. The only one i`d love to not forgive. And though you break my heart, you`re the only one. And though there are times when i hate you. Cause i can`t erase the times that you hurt me and put tears on my face. Even now while i hate you it pains me to say i know i`ll be there at the end of the day. Something that i feel i need to say, but up to now i`ve always been afraid that you would never come around. And still i put this out; you say you`ve got the most respect for me, but sometimes i feel you`re not deserving me. And still you`re in my heart. But you`re the only one, and yes there are times when i hate you. But don`t complain, cause i`ve been afraid that you would`ve walked away. oh but now i don`t hate you. I`m happy to say that i will be there at the end of the day. I don`t wanna be without you babe. I don`t want a broken heart. Don`t wanna take a breath without you babe. I don`t wanna play that part. I know that i love you, but just let me say i don`t want to love you in no kind of way. I don`t want a broken heart, and i don`t want to play the broken-hearted girl. Now i`m at a place i thought i`d never be. I`m living in a world that`s all about you and me. I don`t have to be afraid my broken heart is free. spread my wings and fly away with you.

the forgotten

"you were once the source of a pureness that can`t be defined, and now you curse the day. how can you leave your faith behind? just look at yourself do you like what you see, i want no more of you. watch me walk away. this is your last time you are forgotten, you let your dreams die. you are the forgotten. placed your ego above all, but misplaced your innocence. just look at yourself do you like what you see, i want no more of you. watch me walk away. what you have given up will never return again. now you`re dead inside, i hope it was worth the cost. now you`re buried alive.

this is the last time you are forgotten
you let your dreams die you are the forgotten"

promise yourself

Promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind. To talk health, happiness and prosperity to every person you meet. To make all your friends feel that there is something in them. To look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true. To think only of the best, to work only for the best and expect only the best. To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as you are about your own. To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future. To wear a cheerful countenance at all times and give every living creature you meet a smile. To give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others. To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear and too happy to permit the presence of trouble

letting go

have you ever reminisced on something in the past, thinking of every possible way you could have changed it, made it last, made it work? you spend your days waking up, thinking about it, going through your day thinking about it - hoping and praying it will come back - nothing lasts forever. we go through our lives thinking about yesterday and not today. you`re in denial, heartache and regretting. we`re young, we`re reckless and we`re alive. we make mistakes, we lose people we love and that`s just the way life works. letting go isn`t being weak or giving up..
letting go is growing up.