You go to school for fucking 6 1/2 hours, constatly taking it up the ass (figuratively) from dickhead students and fucktard teachers. Then you go home, which SHOULD be time that doesn't involve learning shit you don't care about. But no, these bitch-ass teachers will not accept only 6 1/2 hours of torturing you. They crave more. So they unload a huge amount of this ass discharge they call homeowrk on you. It can range from a simple math worksheet with a joke you must fill in when you're done (no biggie) to a fucking ton of work containing bookwork, projects, unfinished classwork, studying for a test you know you're going to fail either way, and book reports on a book you didn't care to read. And these teachers are clever too. If you spent fucking hours on this shit and ended up going to sleep at 4 in the mothefucking  morning, these assrammers won't even check the damn homework the next day. Oh, but if you forgot to note down the homework, did the wrong page, or just didn't give two shits about it and didn't do it, the assholes will ask you turn it in. All in all, school sucks, classwork sucks, teachers suck, students suck, and homework is the fucking scum of the earth.
I'm supposed to be doing my homeowrk right now, which is a research paper on a book i didn't have the time to read (assigned by old bitch goodman) and to study for a math test i'm probably going to bomb anyway (giving by fat slut Preston). Except i don't give two shits about it, so i'm writing a definition for Urban Dictionary. What? you think i should be doing my homework instead of writing this wordy definition that probably no one will read? well fuck you then, you can kiss my ass.

Wait for the boy your pursues you. The one who will make an ordinary moment seem magical. The kind of boy who brings out the best in you and makes you want to be a better person. Wait for the boy who will be your best friend. The person who will drop everything to be with you at anytime of the day no matter what the circumstances. Wait for the boy who makes you smile like no other boy makes you smile, and when he smiles you know he needs you. Wait for the boy who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats and have no make up on, but appreciates it when you get all dolled up for him. And most of all, wait for the boy who will put you at the center of his own universe, because obviously he`s at the center of yours.

mama you taught me to do the right things, so now you have to let your baby fly. you`ve given me everything that i will need to make it through this crazy thing called life. and i know you watch me grow up and always want what`s best for me. and i think i found the answer to your prayers. he is good, so good. he treats your little girl like a real man should. he is good, so good. he makes promises he keeps, no he`s never gonna leave. so don`t you worry about me. mama there`s no way you`ll ever lose me, and giving me away is not goodbye. as you watch me walk down to my future, i hope tears of joy are in your eyes. he is good, so good. he treats your little girl like a real man should. he`s never gonna leave, so don`t you worry about me

he ain`t never gunna leave that, you bitches best believe that.

i`m giving these hoes a dose of their own medicine, let em get a good taste of it. i`m sure you got our relationship memo by now. but in case you didn`t, it may take you bitches a while to catch on. better stick your nose to your forehead and staple it, stay out of our business. life`s too short to sit around wasting it, he`s taken so it`s best you quit. even though you chicks be hatin` on us, still he keeps me by his side. he ain`t never gunna leave that, you bitches best believe that

until my death.

Look at me, I`ve lost control of my life. I`ve been so lonely lately without you here. You were my best friend and companion. Now you`re no where near, and it`s killing me. Everything you do makes me fall in love with you. I fall a little harder each and every day. It hurts so bad to know what we had is gone. But no matter what, I`ll still treasure every letter you sent. I spent 10 months doing everything I could to keep you happy. You meant everything to me. I`ll always remember the countless times that we laid in bed. I`m in your arms and you sleeping by my side. I still think about that almost every night. Everything you do makes me fall more in love with you. From your laugh and smile to every little tear. I know that you have stopped crying and I`m so glad that you have moved on. But this heart still hasn`t set sail it appears. Look in my eyes and tell me a lie. Cause I`ve never been so sure of anything in my life. I told you that i love you once and I meant every word I said.

                                                                                            I will love you till the day that I am dead.

I`ve  been led on to think that we`ve been trying for too long. Everytime we drift, we`re forcing what is wrong. At last that voice is gone. Please take your time. But you`ve got to know that I am taking sight.  Oh, you look good with your patient face and wandering eye.  Don`t hold this war inside. You left your home. You`re so far from everything you know. Your big dream is crashing down and out your door. Wake up and dream once more. Come back when you can. Let go, you`ll understand. You`ve done nothing at all to make me love you less. So come back when you can. Come back, I`ll help you stand. Let go and hold my hand. If all you want was me, I`d give you nothing less. So come back when you can.

1. What was the highlight of your week?
     - Christmas Day!! :)
2. Whose car were you last in?
     - Does a truck count? Because my sisters
3. When is thh next time you will kiss someone?
     - Well i'm not sure when that will be, but i hope when he gets homee..
4. What color of shirt are you wearing?
     - White.
5. How long is your hair?
     - Just past the shoulders.
6. Are you good looking?
     -I dont think i'm terrible looking.
7. Last movie you watched?
     -Hmmm.. I can't remember what it is called. but its hilarious..
8. Who were you with?
     - A lot of people. lol
9. Last thing you ate?
     -Salad, Mashed Potatoes, and Ham
10. Last thing you drank?
     -Wine and Cream Soda mixed together.
11. When was the last time you had your heart broken?
     - A while ago.
12. Who came over last?
     - Curtis and Kevin.
13. Are you happy right now?
     - Kinda. In a wierd mood I guess.
14. What did you last say?
     - Well i'm talking right now.
15. Where is your phone?
     - Talking on it right now.
16. What color are your eyes?
     -BLUE eyed girl :)
17. Are you left-handed?
     -No sir.
18. Spell your name without vowels:
     - Well depends if they want to count y as a vowel if not : kl
19. Do you have pets?
     - A kick ass dog named Rez :)
20. Favorite vacation?
     -Alabama or Montana :)
21. What do you currently dislike?
     - That I havent seen him in over a month right now and its killing me!!
22. What are you listening to?
     - Chase and Tiffany
23. If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
     -80 Million dollars ;) or are we being for real here?
24.What is your favorite scent?
     -OMG too many to sayy
25. Who makes you happiest?
     -Tsa my wifey of course.!
26. What were you doing at midnight last night?
     -I believe trying to sleep?
27. When is your birthday?
     - August 29th
28. Who has the same phone as you?
     -Shaylee
29. Last time you went swimming in a pool?
     - Oh jeez, i have no idea.
30. Do you read your horoscope?
     - Hells to the yeah, i made it come up on to my facebook everyday! ha
31. Where was the last place you bought something?
     - Gas at the gas station
32. How do you feel about your hair right now?
     - Greasy ass! haha good thing i'm getting it done tomorrow!
33. Do you bite your nails?
    - Yes :/
34. Do you have expensive jewerly?
    - Yes a necklace my grandparents gave to me for grad. and a ring my mom gave me for christmas :)
35. Myspace or Facebook?
     -Facebook all the way babyyyy
35. How fast have you driven a car?
     170 km/h
36. Have you ever smoked?
     -Tried it, but its not for me
37. What was or is your favorite subject in school?
     - Was, and Gym ahha
38. Do you have Verizon?
    - Nope, Rogers.
39. What type of boy or girl do you usually fall for?
     - I'm not to sure on that one haha
40. Do you have any hidden talents?
     - Well people say i should be a stand up camedian, does that count?
41. Favorite song?
     -It ranges.
42. Do you like to sing at all?
    -When i'm jaming out in my car, or in the shower haha.
43. Dream job?
     - Idk, something that will make me a rich bitch.
44. Where does most of your family live?
     - Cardston, and Montana. Mainly montana though.
45. Are you an odd child or do you have siblings?
     - I have 2 other siblings brother and sister both older.
46. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
    -Truthfully, Yes.
47. What was the first thing you though of when you woke up?
     - Holy fuck am i ever tired.
48. Do you drink?
     - Hells to the Yeah! it aint a party with out K-money there.
49. Know any other language?
     - French and English :) ahha
50. Ever write a coded message?
     - No? not that i know.
51. Have youe ever been IN a wedding?
     -No sir
52. Do you have any children?
     - Hell no.
53. Did you take a nap today?
     - No, but shoulda. but then again i did sleep till 11:30 :/
54. Who has the same birthday as you?
     - Michael Jackson... well did. haha
55. Ever meet someone famous?
     - Well Trevor Panczak. He isn't that famous but he is a well known singer. and Toby Keith pointed at me before :))
56. Do you want to be famous one day?
     - Yes, But i don't know if i will like the attention. i Just want the money. haha
57. Any Pet Peeves?
     - Who doesn't have pet peeves? haha i have soo many.
58. Are you multitasking right now?
     - I always multitask
59. Do you like Britany Spears?
     - Fucking love the crazy bitch.
60. What is your least favorite chore?
     -Vaccuming.
61. Last place you drove your car?
     - to cardston.
62. Ever been out of the country?
     - Yes ma'am
63. Where were you born?
     -Cardston.
64. Could you handle being in the military?
     - No, i don't think so :(
65. What is your average cell phone bill?
     - Idk, my parents pay for it.
66. Who are you thinking about right now?
     - well no one until you asked.
67. When was the last time you really laughed hard?
     - Couple minutes ago, watching chase play wii. and always hitting tif with the tennis thing haha
68. How many pair of shoes do you own.
     - Too many to even count.
69. Are your toes always painted?
     - No.
70. How many piercings do you have?
    - six.
71. What are you doing today?
    - or do you mean did? i woke up, went to the mall drove to cardston went to normas ate super then came home and now on here.
72. Have you ever been gambling?
    -yes
73. When is the last time you updated your page?
    - What page?
74. Do you like rollercoasters?
     -never really been on one, but i think i would like it.
75. Have you ever been to disneyland or world?
     - No, but i wanna go one day.
76. Do you have a favorite cartoon character?
     - Mickey mouse :)
77. Last thing you cooked?
     - Cant really remember ha
78. How's the weather?
     -Cold and windy :(
79. Do you e-mail?
     - Only to my grandma and grandpa in alabama
80.What's the stupidest thing you have ever did with your cel phone?
     - Drop it in the toilet hahaha
81. Last time you were sick?
     - I am sick now :(
82. What states have you lived in?
     - No states, just provinces and only alberta.
83. Do you wish you could move?
     - Well i just moved to lethbridge, so not really no.
84. Do you take all the quizpox.com quizzes?
     -naat.
85.What is your dream car?
     -Does truck count? becauase it would be a dodge. single cab.
86. Have you ever wanted someone you cant have?
     - Who hasn't?
87. If you could be anywhere right now where would it be?
     - With him
88. Are you happy with your life right now?
     - I'm pretty content

I follow my heart but every time i do it gets me lost and left in the dark. but i think its clear this time, i guess we`re just not compatible. you pick me up and let me down. you give me nothing to fall on. damn, i wish cupid`s arrow never hit. never went through me. wish we never crossed the line. with i never gave you this booty. that ain`t about no other, back to friends then lovers. lets just call this what it is babe. never thought i would say we were a beautiful mistake. can`t say it no other way we were a beautiful mistake. damn i wish we could stay but we were just a beautiful mistake. boy you know i'm gonna miss you by my side but it is what it is. you followed your heart and it lead you to me, but in reality i don`t fit the part. we gave it a room but it flew outta control now. don`t get me wrong, what we had was good. i really thought we stood a chance. but that love quickly passed. there isn`t any use in fighting cuz it`s understood. we both know we tried it but it didn`t turn out good. don`t you see that we`re just a beautiful mistake? that`s what we are.

There will be one day when the time is right. When everything falls into perfect aligment. When you can't help smiling when think about someone. Someone very special. Probably the only one you want to spend time with on a nice sunny day

You are absolutly beautiful, okay? I want you to know something. Please

You`re a teenager. You are far from perfect, yet beautiful. You`re going to fuck up. You`re going to change. You`re going to lose friends. You`re going to gain friends. You`re going to keep friends. You`re going to learn who your true friends are. You`re going to hate your parents. You`re going to have a days where you just want to lose yourself in your headphones. You`re gonna have days you want to scream until your head explodes. You`re gonna feel broken, you`re gunna feel dead. And then there are times you feel so alive. You are absolutely beautiful throughout ALL of this. Cutting yourself isn`t going to help any of it. I know you`ve heard it a million times. But take it from someone who knows what it`s like to just want to get home and pick up the blade and give yourself what you think you deserve. You don`t deserve that. No one does. The next time you want to cut, take the blade, and throw it out your window. Throw it in the trash. Just fucking laugh at it. Laugh at how up until now, that had controlled you. And tell it that enough is ENOUGH. That you`re better than it, and you`nre not going to let it control you anymore. Then go jam out to your favorite song.You don`t deserve to cut yourself, kill yourself, anything. You deserve to live. And even though being a teenager is seriously the biggest thing we all have to overcome, we can make it through these years with a smile. Just promise me you`ll try. Because you`re beautiful, and believe it or not, you ARE worth something. You`re worth the fucking world.

Forever in my heart

Let the record reflect the records we set. Best foot forward with every step. And let`s push towards it, never regress. And let`s remember, if we ever get down, the places that we came from 'round. All the good times on the bad side of town. The upside of bad, flip it upside down. Came from the bottom but we up high now. Believe, and from this view we achieve. We look back at teh rules we recieved, and how we broke those, dismantle and rewrote those. And the ghost still alive in the photos. Sounds of summer, day and go wise. Cold wind blowing through a city on fire. Moments of thepast, came here to find you. Not to relive them, just to remind you. I`ll always remember, I hope you know. And let the evidence show, the future's so bright. It`s never been more, not like tonight. We walk into the glow, right into the light.The past all around us, the time of our life. The first love kisses, the broke heart disses. This is just like a first-class ticket. Back to the first written rap. The crumbled-up paper and the pen with no cap. The hand-me-down clothes and the unturned hat. The hookers on the corner and the kids selling crack. The needles in the yard where we used to play catch. Stories from theproject we could never go at. Or to, these are shades of my youth. Trails of a child, everything truth. Moments of the past, coming back to find us. Not to relieve them, just to remind us. Take me to that old familiar place. Take me to memories we won`t erase. Take me to all that we had, good and the bad. I`ll never forget you, I`ll never let you go. I`ll always remember, I hope you know. Everything cherished, remembered in my heart. So you will never perish, you will never part. I tell them all about you, drumming in the park, we put you in the ground, but I see you in the stars. Go and take a bow, a round of applause. The best that ever, always ready we are. Love always shines, that`s how I`ll find you. <3

I know that our love is over and there is no turning back. I know i`ve made some bad mistakes and i`ll have to live with that. And I guess what hurts the most is when you say you don`t recall even one good memory from when we had it all. It`s like they never happened those good times that we shared. But you and god and I know you were there. It breaks my heart to see you leave with nothing but regret. Why can`t you remember what I can`t forget? Yesterday meant something, at least it did to me. But I guess are past is just a ghost, that only I can see. I wish that you could face the truth about the love we once had. Look back on the years and say it wasn`t all that bad. It breaks my heart to see you leave with nothing but regret.

Why did you call me today with nothing new to say? You pretend like it`s just a hello, but you know waht it does to me to see your number on the phone. Now tell me, what do you want from me? Are you tring to bring back teh tears or just the memories? You keep taking me back, taking me back where i`ve already been. When we hang up it`s like i`m losing you again. Can`t you see? So tell me, what do you want from me? I get so tired of living like this. I don`t have time, neither do my friends, to stay up at night to pull me through, and find the things to keep my mind off of you. Did you call to say you`ve found someone and i`m a used-to-be. If you`ve moved on why does it fee like i`m losing you again? What do you want me to say? That i`m content? That i`m on the fence? That I wish you would have stayed?! Baby, what do you want from me? to come here and make love tonight because you`re feeling lonely. You keep taking me back to where i`ve already been. When we wake up and say goodbye it`s like i'm losing you again. Can`t you see what your doing to me. What do you want from me??!

not happening

We scream and shout and try to make it last. Though it didn`t work out, I don`t love you any less. My lover or friend, I won`t ever tell. Our secrets safe. An unspoken citadel. And in these broken times, well, it`s so easy to forget, so I sing to remind. Upon my shoulder you can rest. Cause I`ll always give you my best. A sidewalk`s path leads me to you. Though we don`t look back, we hold on to a truth. And in these broken times, I promise I will not forget though you`re not mine. Upon your shoulder I can rest. Cause you always give me your best. Like a promise kept, It`s like you never left. And though it`s been so long, I can`t ever seem to forget. All it takes is a song. And I could swear I hear your steps. Down the hall echoes a past that leaves an ache. It`s never left. Cause I gave you my best. Its like you never left.

baby, don't go.

I shouldn`t have walked away. I would`ve stayed if you said we could`ve made everything ok. But we just threw the blame back and forth. We treated love like a sport. The final blow hit so low, i`m still on the ground. I couldn`t have prepared myself for this fall. Shattered in pieces curled on the floor. Super natural love conquers all. Remember we used to touch the sky? And lightning don`t strike the same place twice. When you and I said goodbye, I felt the angels cry. True love`s a give, and we let it drift. In  a storm everynight i feel the angels cry. Come on babe, can`t our love be revived? Bring it back and we are going to make it right. I`m on the edge just trying to make it right. I thought we would be forever and always. You were serenity. You took away the bad days. You didn`t always treat me right, but that was ok. You would do something stupid, and I would still stay with you. But you can only go for so long doing the one you claim to love wrong efore too much is enough. You look up, find your love gone and... We were so good together. How come we could not weather this storm and just do better? Baby, why did we say goodbye? Baby, can`t you see that I`m missing you. Don`t allow love to lose. We gotta ride it through. I`m reaching for you. come back.

I don`t understand.

I don`t understand how you can smile all day long, but cry yourself to sleep at night. How pictures never change, but the people in them do. How your best friend can become your worst enemy, or how strange it is when your worst enemy turns into your best friend. How forever turns into a few short months that you`d do almost anything to get back. How you can let go of something you once said you couldn`t live without. How even though you know something is best for you, it just hurts the same. How the popel who once wanted to spend every second with you, think a few minutes of their time is too much to spare. How people make promises despite knowing how common it is for promises to be broken. How people can erase you from their lives just because it`s easier than working things out.

Toy Soldier

So I guess i fell in love with a toy soldier. He told me that our love would be marching on. He told me that our love was mighty strong. And I guess I believed you, because you were my baby. Why would I doubt you, when you said you loved me? But I didn't know you were the enemy. The only one who made me cry, is you. And the only one I had to fight, is you. And it was you who told me. He said, that I would never have to fight again. He said, that I would never have to cry again. He said he'd had been to the battle field, my heart is safe with him. All my trust I gave to him. So I guess i fell in love with a toy soldier. You told me you would take care of me, you lied. You told me that you were the best for me, you lied. Cause you came up empty. I feel like your trippin me. Everything you said you'd give me, you couln't give me. I let down my guard because you were my guard. But who protects me know? Cause I gave you my heart and you tore it apart. You let me down. I gave you all my love, you let me down.

Look at me -  I know you hurt me and I hurt you, but I know what we once had was real. It isn`t there the fiery spark that kept us alive, it dimished into nothing. I want you to move on and never look back. Not at me, not at anything we had. I want you to move on to bigger and better things just like i`m going to as well. But if you find that your life isn`t quite right, find me. I`ll be waiting in the dark, waiting for you to light up my life once again.