letting go

have you ever reminisced on something in the past, thinking of every possible way you could have changed it, made it last, made it work? you spend your days waking up, thinking about it, going through your day thinking about it - hoping and praying it will come back - nothing lasts forever. we go through our lives thinking about yesterday and not today. you`re in denial, heartache and regretting. we`re young, we`re reckless and we`re alive. we make mistakes, we lose people we love and that`s just the way life works. letting go isn`t being weak or giving up..
letting go is growing up.

take over control

let`s go take a ride in your car, i will take the passenger seat. baby we don`t have to go far, unless you want to show. be a lovely place out of town, where you feel most steady. well you are the one that i like, always will be time to let you know. know when you feel when you take hold. one single touch from you i`m gone, still got the rush when i`m alone. i think it`s time i let you know, take over me i will be flout. you set me free my body`s yours, it feels the best when you`re involved. i want you to take over control. plug it in and turn me on. baby, baby can`t you see that i`m giving all of me. so it`s up to you now, we could let them pass away. only can excuse to play, but it`s up to you now. just wanna fulfill your needs, that`s why you taking over me. so what do you want now? take a picture, make a show. cause nobody yes and no, all the ways that we get down. i want you to take over control.

i don't knw waht to say

i don`t really know what to do or say.. part of me feels like i shouldn`t say anything. but then there`s this other part of me, a much bigger part, a part of me that keeps saying i don`t want to walk away. i know at this point you may have already made up your mind. that it`s me who`s walking away, and i understand you might feel you need to protect yourself. and that you don`t want to feel hurt. i understand that and respect your feelings, i just wanted you to know that i`m sorry i gave up on this, and i`ll miss you.

Something you forgot

i`ve been lonely, i`ve been waiting for you. i`m pretending, and that`s all i can do. the love i`m sendin ain`t makin it through to your heart. i hope you hear me. pain, since i`ve lost you i`m lost too. feelin like i`m at the bottom like a horse shoe. sorry for the trouble that i put you and your heart through, god knows that i`d do anything for a part two. or to be prayin for the day you come back to me, sayin that you forgive me. give me another chance, i`m needin it like a kidney. i don`t wanna advance, give me back his hands, give me back his touch. i don`t ask for much. but i fucked up, i know i fucked up, i admit i fucked up, but everybody fuck up. now some other chick lucked up. i was his down chick, he was my soldier, he was my shoulder. you were the pistol to my holster. you`ve been hiding, never letting it show. always trying to keep it under control. you got it down, and you`re well on your way to the top, but there`s somethin that you forgot. you forgot about the house, you forgot about the ring. i remember everything, i just wanna hear you again. i remember the love right after the fights, you can`t tell me you don`t remember those nights. and if i would cry then you would cry twice, to me you are the brightest star under sunlight. see take away my title, take away my stripes. you give me back my boy and you give me back my life.. give me back my boy and you give me back my life. see this is just a nightmare so i blink twice, open up my eyes hopin` he`d be in my sight. i remember the time, i wish i could bring it back. i was such a sinner, but the lord is a forgiver. you know they say if you pray, than you can get your blessings ordered and delivered. my momma asked about you, my partners did too. i know whoever you`re with will think your just as amazing as i do. and i know you probably wish you never met me, and i just wish you never forget me. and let me say, please don`t worry `bout the men i have been with. no engagement can amount to your friendship. and i hope this girl know she got a king, and all i can do is dream.. damn.

Let's say we're sorry

let`s say we`re sorry before it`s too late, give forgiveness a chance. turn the anger into water, let it slip through our hands. we all bleed red, we all taste rain, all fall down, lose our way. we all say words we regret, we all cry tears, we all bleed red. if we`re fighting we`re both losing, we`re just wasting our time. because my scars, they are your scars. and your world is mine. sometimes we`re strong, sometimes we`re weak, sometimes we`re hurt and it cuts deep. we live this life breath to breath, we`re all the same. let`s say we`re sorry, before it`s too late..

Scary

a lot of things scare me. but if we`re being honest here, you scare me the most. i`m scared you won`t come back. i`m scared you`ll see my pathetic attempt to move on and be happy as something real. i`m scared you`ll see me faking it and think it`s true. i`m scared to smile in case you think, for some reason, that it means i`m okay without you. because i`m not okay. i`m not okay when i`m smiling, i`m not okay when i`m failing at forgetting you, and i`m especially not okay at night, when no one`s around, when i listen to our favorite songs, and i think about how you`re the only thing that ever made me close to any form of the word "okay".

The Forgotten

you were once the source of a pureness that can`t be defined, and now you curse the day. how can you leave your faith behind? just look at yourself do you like what you see, i want no more of you. watch me walk away. this is your last time you are forgotten, you let your dreams die. you are the forgotten. placed your ego above all, but misplaced your innocence. just look at yourself do you like what you see, i want no more of you. watch me walk away. what you have given up will never return again. now you`re dead inside, i hope it was worth the cost. now you`re buried alive.

this is the last time you are forgotten
you let your dreams die you are the forgotten

Promise Yourself.

Promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind. To talk health, happiness and prosperity to every person you meet. To make all your friends feel that there is something in them. To look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true. To think only of the best, to work only for the best and expect only the best. To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as you are about your own. To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future. To wear a cheerful countenance at all times and give every living creature you meet a smile. To give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others. To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.

wondering

I lay awake at night and wonder how you are. Why you didn't text back. If you're still awake. If I should have just texted you. When you'll call again. When I will hear your voice next. I just want to tell you I love you. And I don't know why but when I do, I feel better and when you tell me you love me, it makes my night an I think this might just be because I'm falling for you. But I don't know what to do about it. So, I'll just stay quiet and wait for my next chance to tell you how much i love yo and hope you reply 'I love you too.' Because it makes... It makes my heart flutter, to be honest.

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? it makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up a whole suit of armor. So that nothing can hurt you. Then one stupid person. No different from any other stupid person. Wonders into your stupid life... You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you, or smile at you. and then your life isn't your life anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying alone in the darkness. So a simle phrase like 'maybe we should just be friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in imagination. Not just in mind. It' a sould hurt. A real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.. I hate love.

Six Billion

At this moment there is 6,470,818,617 people in the

world. some are running scared. some are coming

home. Some tell lies to make it though the day.

Others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil

men at war with good, and some are good strugglng

with evil. Six billion people in the world, six billion

souls. And sometimes, all you need is one. 

broken.

It`s been a year and a half since you turned and walked away. Baby, you were foolish. You were wrong. You should have made it better. You broke the promise you made cause you were jelous and afraid. Baby, I was rising and you let me down. We should`ve stood together. So I cracked and called you today and my tears froze on my face. You said we were over, you were so cold. We should`ve been forever. Now I can`t breathe if i`m not breathing with you. I can`t sleep if all i'm dreamin about is you. Can`t you see? I`ve got no air without you. I can`t breathe. We could have had everything, but all we got is heartache and pain. I can`t catch my breath, it`s getting harder to speak. You should be proud of me, but you`re too insecure and too vain. We should have been forever. I wanted you forever..

Why couldn`t you just be a man? Why couldn`t you just understand? All I wanted to do ws hold your hand.