fuck you

I don't think he understands the sacrifices i made. maybe if he had acted right i would have stayed. but i've already wasted half my time. i would have laid down and died for you. i no longer cry for you, no more pain. you took me for granted. took my heart and ran it straight into the planet, into the dirt. i can no longer stand it, now my respect, i demand it. im going to take control of this relationship. command it. and i'm going to be the boss of ou now goddammit. and what i mean is that, i will no longer let you control me. So you better hear me out, this much you owe me. I gave up m life for you. Totally devoted to you. why i've stayed. Failthful all the way. This is how i fucking get repaid? Look at how i get dressed, fucking baggy sweats. Go to work a mess. Always in a rush to get back to you. I haven't heard you yet. not even once say you appreciate me. I deserve respect. i've done my best to give you nothing less then perfectness and i know that if i end this, i'll no longer have nothing left. but you keep treating me like a staircase. It's time to fucking step. and i won't be coming back. so don't hold your fucking breathe. you know what you've done. no need to go in depth. i told you, you'd be sorry if i fucking left. I laughed while you wept. how does it feel now? yeah, funny ain't it. you neglected me. did me a favor. Let all my spirit free youu've said. got a special place for you in m heart that's i've kept. it's unfortunate but it's too late for the other side. caught in a chase. 25 to life. i feel like when i bend over backwards for you, all you do is laugh, cuz that ain't good enough. You expect me to fold myself in half till i snap. Don't think i'm loyal? Don't i give you enough of my time? you don't think so do you? jelous when i spend time with the boys. Why i'm with you still. man i don't know. but tonight i'm leaving you. go find someone else and make them famous, and take their freedom away like you did to me. treat them like you don't need them. and they aren't worthy of you. feed them the same shit that you made me eat. I'm moving on. Forget ou. oh now i'm special. i didn't feel special when i was with you. all i ever felt was this: helplessness. Imprisoned b a selfish bitch. chew me up and spit me out. i fell for this so man times. its ridiculous. and still i stick with this. i'm sick of this. but in my sickness and addiction. your addictive as they get. Evil as they come. Vindictive as they make them. My friends keep asking me why i can't just walk away from you. I'm addicted to the pain, the stress, the drama. I'm drawn to it. So i guess i'm a mess cursed and blessed. but this time i'm not changing my mind. I'm climbing out this abyss. Your screaming as i walk out that i'll be missed. but when you spoke of people who meant the most to you, you left me off your list. fuck you, i'm leaving you. my life sentence is served bitch.